First Love

Michael, my first love, (1986-88) 2 years of fun, yet insecurities and indecision. I wasn't attracted to you initially. You weren't a classically handsome man, but you were a charmer and a gentleman. You knew how to treat a 'lady', as I was back then. A young, naive, lady.

First love,

Met on the stairs -

Party - Forest Road West,

Loud music, we chatted our best!

Swept me off my feet,

Lost my secure balance,

Took me on a dance,

Dirtied pure white sheets..

Cramped, eastern inspired Bedsit -

Reading, cosy, nights lit,

Playing, laughing, loving,

Vodka fuelled rants, jealous fits!

Flirting with others,

Not me,

Fuelling an anger -

Never seen..

Security with you - never there -

Messy emotions - OW!

Get OUT of my hair!!

One minute you loved me -

Next, you didn't care!

Spend our life together?

No wait, there's a world out there!

First rejection

Crucified my heart,

Tore my world apart,

Knocked me black and blue,

Left

In a darkened hue..

Life almost ended,

Truly comprehended..